RE: chosen

But don´t get me wrong, I think I understand what you mean. In fact transformation is what I´m going through right now by this time not being bitter about the mental illness of the woman I fell in love with (until I opened my eyes, and our friendly number helped me by popping up everywhere when we got closer).

She lives 3 minutes from here, we visit the same park every day where we all walk our dogs..

I told her what bothered me personally, told her she needed treatment...and now she´s in a depression and going through an anoretic phase becoming a skeleton. So I wrote a facebook mail to her parents, letting them know about her problems and try to move on without getting sucked into her problems.

10 years ago my relative stability in this kind of context would have been seriously shaken, and I myself would have blindly followed her into emotional madness.

I mean, all of this makes me very sad for her, and it´s not easy to see her like that.

But I´m managing to keep my selfrespect and selflove while avoiding to develop hostility or anger with the whole situation.

I guess that´s what 66 ultimately meant for me, transformation into someone with enough healthy egoism to not be emotionally abused again by unstable women, and by extension, people.

Yeah, I found self-respect which I never realized I was missing in the first place.

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