But don´t get me wrong, I think I understand what you mean. In fact transformation is what I´m going through right now by this time not being bitter about the mental illness of the woman I fell in love with (until I opened my eyes, and our friendly number helped me by popping up everywhere when we got closer).
She lives 3 minutes from here, we visit the same park every day where we all walk our dogs..
I told her what bothered me personally, told her she needed treatment...and now she´s in a depression and going through an anoretic phase becoming a skeleton. So I wrote a facebook mail to her parents, letting them know about her problems and try to move on without getting sucked into her problems.
10 years ago my relative stability in this kind of context would have been seriously shaken, and I myself would have blindly followed her into emotional madness.
I mean, all of this makes me very sad for her, and it´s not easy to see her like that.
But I´m managing to keep my selfrespect and selflove while avoiding to develop hostility or anger with the whole situation.
I guess that´s what 66 ultimately meant for me, transformation into someone with enough healthy egoism to not be emotionally abused again by unstable women, and by extension, people.
Yeah, I found self-respect which I never realized I was missing in the first place.
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did you ever consider you met her for a reason? instead of running away at the first sing of trouble why don't you try to help her? follow the number like a road map. when you see it act on it man. there is something there trust me.
Oh, but nooone can help a person with personality disorders. That´s a very hard lesson I already learned in a past relationship. The nature of most personality disorders is to idealize first when they meet someone, and then to gradually deconstruct and devalue. It´s not my job to be a therapist, my first duty is to protect myself from malicious or cold behaviors. BTW, as long as there are no ties like children or family involved the best thing you can do is to stay clear from people with borderline or narcissism, believe me. The mother Theresa route may sound noble, but it´s pretty much self-defeating.
Or simpler, how do you help someone who doesn´t even have enough empathy to understand some of the true basics of relationships, friendships etc?
Now what I did do was to alert her family about her current crisis, but that´s all I can and want to do.
I also wrote her a long letter, alerting her to some of my suspicions about her mental state and recommending her to go to therapy, but in the end that will just be perceived as an insult, I´m sure.
Nothing to do, moving on.
Well, man, I thought about what you said. Funny how someone totally anonymous can have an impact on us. We talk, and it went well. She´ll do therapy. I´ll be her friend. Not an easy situation for me.
glad i could help. check this out i was at the casino a couple hours ago. and i was on the black jack table with a minimum buy in of 5 dollars i had 2 1 dollar chips so i put 6 on the bet and 6 on the dealer to bust. the first 6 times it worked and everytime the dealer busted she handed me 2 or 3 stacks of 6 dollars. so 6 times the dealer handed me back 12 for the bet and 18 for the buster. but i got greedy changed it up to 40 and 40 and lost. not a bad night i learned that the number can be used in my favor. i also noticed that my intuition was much higher after that i was calling out 21s all night. but i still messed up by not walking away when i knew i maxed out. see some people will know when they should walk away. if your like me and sparked out of your mind youll probably go broke too hahah. i get paid in another week and im going with a new strategy
What a great resuocre this text is.
I agree...you should try and help her...I keep seeing 66 everywhere as well. The temp reads 66 degrees right in front of me as I post this. I keep seeing it everywhere as I have recently had a spiritual awakening with in the past few months. Is 66 just a common number though? Maybe now we are spotting it out on purpose?
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