Three years ago I went through a very traumatic situation where I realized all of the relationships in my life both business and personal were taking advantage of me as I've always been a very selfless person and always have been able to put myself in other peoples shoes and feel the emotions they feel so because of being able to feel what I've felt I've always overcompensated people I care about and in business I built a company pretty much by myself as I generated atleast 90% of the business if not more which generated my boss millions of dollars in net profit and are agreement was I would make him millions and he would open up other businesses and he ended up opening 7 others which I was to receive 25% ownership of all of them. Well long story short I never got paid one dollar and on top of that he ripped me off of $48,000 and continued to push me to generate more business and I really can't to love this guy as a father figure and my judgment was really off and he ultimately "put me together" knowing I would continue to go further pass the line of anyone's breaking point and there were many "last straws that broke the camels back" I ended up braking off every relationship I had that I was giving 150% and in return seeing maybe 20% if I was lucky. Well I had a mental breakdown and went into a very high vibration pattern where I was speaking a million words a minute it seemed knowing what I was going to say minutes before i said it no matter how long the conversation, myself and others starters to notice if I were talking and the tv or radio was on at the same time as I would say a word whatever was on TV would say the same word at the exact sale time, atleast 7,8 times a day, I would say someone's name and a minute later get a phone call from that person. That happened atleast 3 times a day. At the end of those three months for the last two weeks or so I would throw up every night for no reason at 9pm every night at the exact same time of night 9pm. I felt like I was on overdrive for months after the breakdown and after three months of that I crashed and went into a very deep and dark depression But biggest thing was and still is I've been seeing the number 33 atleast 8 to 10 times a day if not more. I just wanted to see if anyone could help me understand any of this and if there were a direction I could be lead to reading or watching on YouTube as I am very spiritual and very open minded I just wanted to ask for help because it's gotten to the point I have gotten a little scared from continuing to see 33 as much as I do. Any information or input would really help me out allot. Please if you can help please email me at ianetrumpauto@ gmail. com
Thank you so much I really hope I can understand this and be lead in a direction that can help me in my life as I want to be 100% again (as I wrote 100 the TN show said 100) lol. I'm not crazy and I have a very big heart I just hope and have faith that someone much more knowledgable them me can lend me a helping hand with an email. (As I was writing thinking what to day as I thought faith again the character on the tv show said faith) hopefully this gives you alittle understanding of how much this is happening to me and any light on the subject would really mean allot to me and be very dear to my heart and you will truly be doing a very good deed as i feel lost still after what happened and I have not found myself or have been happy since. Thank you all and God bless you all.
- Ian Patrick Egan ( Ian = 3 subtract my last name from middle name and you get 3 or add them up and is 3 and 11.) don't know if that means absolutely squat.
It's not so much the number 33 that stands out in your story as the idea of coincidences in general - and synchronicity as another way of describing coincidences . . . in my work as a bodyworker, coincidences represent connection to the larger feminine - to the feminine aspect of God - and to the emotional body. The revving up of your mental state suggests lack of traction of some sort - an analogy would be a revving up of the engine when the wheels don't have traction and just spin while you press on the gas . . .
being used by others suggests that you lack some basic sense of self-worth, and need to have self-worth reflected back to you by others. . . the way a pattern like this might start in childhood, is with a critical parent that inaccurately criticizes your accomplishments - so that no matter how hard you try or how much you accomplish the validation is never there, or is barely there . . .
this is not so much about finding meaning in the coincidences as in learning to rebuild confidence within yourself. . . and the coincidences suggest that this is your window of opportunity . . . there is another part here, where I sense a lack of higher education in the way you write and tell your story - and that again may affect your ability to see yourself as determining your own destiny path, as opposed to having it determined by association with others. . . .
My sense is that you need guidance at ground level - where you can translate support into 'traction' - into moving forward - and you can start with a small aspect of your life first to build understanding of the dynamics - before you tackle a larger issue like reward in business. . . if you can't find help with someone locally - because it would be important that you find support where your body can experience it - post a note with an email address and I'll contact you - I'll check this list in a month or so . . .
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